My Struggle With Anxiety

Before I begin, I would like to validate whoever is reading this post and experiences a form of anxiety. Anxiety is a part of mental health, and can be clinically diagnosed or naturally experienced. For this post, I can only explain the form of anxiety that I experience. I encourage you to continue reading, but remember that you are an amazing unique being. Your experience may be different from mine which is wonderful because differences gives us an opportunity to learn from one another.

Since I can remember, I’ve always worried. I worry about bugs touching me, potential health problems, poor finances, decisions I made in my past, decisions I’ll make in my future, my relationships, current dilemmas…basically everything. I’ve also experience anxiety in a good way. I can be so focused on doing well, but I’m unsure of the outcome which causes me to feel anxious. I’d feel like I was always on edge. My muscles tense up, my breathing increases, my heart starts racing, and I’ll stay up all night just thinking about whatever. My anxiety never caused a significant amount of distress or impaired my normal functioning, but it was noticed especially by my family and friends. I was known as the “worrier” and began to accept that label as apart of my identify, but why did I have to be the “one with anxiety”?


The cause.

I never really questioned my anxious feelings  until a few months ago. I was up in my bed thinking about a potential scenario that most likely wouldn’t ever happen, but it consumed my thoughts. Where did this come from!? Well, after some soul searching, I came up with a few reasons on why I personally experience my form of anxiety (fear/worry):

  1. Mental preparation: I worry when anticipating an event or certain situation (i.e. good or bad).
  2. Lack of control: I fear things when I don’t have power over the outcome.
  3. Lack of trust: When I do fully believe in (fill in the blank), my anxious feelings surface and I begin to question the certainty of everything.

(Please keep in mind, these are not clinical reasons for anxiety, but my personal reasons that you may connect with in this area of your life.)

My revelation.

After processing my anxiety and the cause behind it, soon after, I came across this settling quote from a historic piece of literature:


I thought to myself, Hold up, does the Bible really talk about mental health challenges like anxiety!? The answer is YES! The Bible talks about various topics and anxiety is one  of them. God knew that people would live in this world and deal with anxiety.

Helpful solution.

The Bible goes further in explaining the solution for anxiety: “Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus” NLT Philippians 4:6-7.

Dealing with anxiety is not a simple task; it’s apart of life, my life and maybe even yours. The amazing part about this life is that 1) you don’t have to deal with anxiety alone. There are therapists, social workers, etc. who want to help you, and/or 2) there’s a free solution which is prayer. God wants us to pray about everything we deal with on this earth and He will give us peace.

Last tip: If you are someone who has anxiety and it’s beginning to affect your daily functioning, 1) I can try my best to connect you with a counselor, therapist, social worker, etc., and/or 2) Take care of yourself and make an appointment with your primary care doctor. P.S. head over to my ABOUT ME page and send me a message :).

Don’t forget friends, it’s LIFE, THAT’S IT!


During Christmas break 2016, after I decided to worry less, I enjoyed some Pho Soup. 🙂 #SelfCare








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